I need someone, I’m screaming these thoughts in my head hoping you’d somehow catch the hint in my words. I need fucking help, I don’t want to talk about you anymore. I just fucking don’t, I want to talk about me. I want to stop crying, I want to stop being sad and living in my past. I want to stop caring about all the bullshit, I want to stop picking at the stems of my ex’s. But all I can see myself doing is being alone, and I hate it. I just want some company, I just want someone to be there for me and be my bestfriend and my boyfriend. And that’s what leads me to you. The other boy. You’re should be the last thing on my mind but I really can’t help but I miss you, and I can’t fucking take the fact that you’re doing so well without me. I swear I need you back, but it’s impossible and I’ll never have that but you were everything I ever wanted and everything I needed. I swear we were perfect and I don’t care what you did on tour and I don’t care if it did or didn’t happen anymore, and I don’t care about Callie all I care about is you and how I can’t get you out of my fucking head because I love you and you’re the only person I want to be with for the rest of my life. So come back to me and let’s make this work, like you said it was supposed to be you and me.
Lonely thoughts
For all the times I have missed you, for all the times you have hurt me, and for all the times you have left me.
Posted on Monday 30 May 11.
