Sometimes I feel like I let people get the best of me, I try so hard to just satisfy everyone and I don’t complain when they piss me off or aggravate me. I just ignore the fact that it ever happened in the first place and try to move on with my day. I feel like everyone around me just wants something out of me. They all want something I have to offer them from materialistic things to status. Everyone takes advantage of the fact that I’m not like most other people, as if I was easily replaced or something. It’s funny now to me, because now that I’m confident in who I am and confident in what I have to offer someone I know that I’m better than that and I know what I have to offer someone, and when I’m gone they’ll look for me in everyone else and make it seem like it was my loss or some shit. But even still years down the line the ones that said they never needed me or could do better…. I’m still in the back of their minds, I’m still in their head eating away at their minds. I’m different, and I know it sounds cocky and arrogant but I’m not at all it’s just what I really feel like. I’m not perfect, I make mistakes and I don’t always handle situations well but what can I say, this is who I am and I’m a little crazy, maybe even rude sometimes but it is what is is. When they all leave, they’ll be back. They always are.
Lonely thoughts
For all the times I have missed you, for all the times you have hurt me, and for all the times you have left me.
Posted on Saturday 11 February 12.
