I’m slowly loosing my dreams
but from what I can remember I was sitting in my room,
I heard something, I don’t know what it was but I heard it and I just remember automatically thinking it was you. I didn’t look at first, but something happened where I did and it was. I just remember you saying you had a choice from someone, and you realized that I was everything you wanted and you wanted to be with me instead of the girl you left me for. We kissed, we were so happy. Kyle was there, and I think kittens or puppies or something for some reason, I’m not quite sure entirely. You told me she was too young and too immature to understand you, but let’s be honest you’re a 15 year old boy living in an 18 year old still boys body. I don’t know what my head is doing, that would never happen, I’d never choose you over what I have right now. I don’t know why you’re in my head, you don’t deserve someone like me and you proved it by trying to make me feel like I didn’t deserve you. I’m so much better off without you, and I’m so happy with where I am right now.
You don’t have control over my feelings anymore, you hurt me and you left me and you did this to yourself. There’s a void in your heart that no one will fill.
Being in lust, okay you can get over. But being in love will leave something missing when I’m gone. Drew, five years later and he still asks about me and I know he’ll never love a girl the way he loved me again. Justin, still talks to me and asks to take me out a year later. And last but not least you, you’ll never be able to get me out of your head and no other girl will compare to the feelings I gave you. And every single one of you guys told me that I wasn’t good enough, or I didn’t deserve the other.
Of course I still think about them every so often, some more than others but let’s be real really quick I’m one of a kind. I’m not cocky but every single one of these boys/men whatever you want to call them have told me I have something in me that just keeps them wanting more. Why the fuck would you ever give it up in the first place if you knew you’d regret it, all three of you idiots did some stupid shit to me and now you all regret it. I hope you think about me for the rest of your life and look for me in every girl you try to be with.
I win.
