So badly I wanted to
just go up to you today, kiss you as if everything was okay.
Ask you if you missed me, here you say you did.
And look at you and say “good, now you’ll remember everything you lost.”
But instead, I ended up by your side all night, desperately wishing maybe you finally realized everything I could give you, everything I had to offer.
Of course, you didn’t.
You never will.
I’ve been wasting my time since the start.
Also, I’ve come to realize you are nothing I could ever want.
26 years old and still acting as if you’re some 17 year old kid who always has a hard on, doing anything, saying anything to get your dick wet.
I’m now realizing how stupid I was for ever expecting anything more than that from you. I guess I was just lonely, and desperate for any kind of affection anyone was willing to give me. I shouldn’t have to struggle for your attention, I shouldn’t have to work to feel important. Those things should come easy.
I really fucked up this time.
